Balancing

When I was 16 years old I danced with a professional company in Chicago.  For my first performance, I had to hold my body in a shoulder stand with both hands off the floor for about two minutes.  I had to get into this position on a dark stage and remain there without moving while the lights came up and other dancers started moving around me.  I was terrified that I would lose my balance.  I didn't.  Now, in my regular yoga practice, I lose my balance all the time.  It is something that I am grappling with, both physically and emotionally.  I don't like losing my balance - I usually feel humiliated by it.  But I know that falling is an essential step in getting where I want to be, so I am being patient with myself.  Sometimes I can get there - like this!